Finding Joy in the Discontent

Did you ever wonder...where did the time go? 
Has it really been THAT long? 
How have I changed?  Are my goals, dreams and my purpose still the same? 

As you can see, it has been over three years since I have "blogged", connected and shared my 
thoughts. To be truthful, I have felt like a drifter and in some ways, homeless, during that time. 
I am tired of it. As I approach the wise old age of 50, I feel the urgency to leave a legacy bigger than me. To find joy through the discontent. To touch lives of those I may never meet. To hold close those who I would miss most. To create meaning in life so that I leave with a smile on my face and a celebration for those around me. 

"Without purpose there will be no focus. Without a plan there will be no action. Without belief, there will be no success."  -Kelly Wissink, first-cup-of coffee wisdom.

Wow! I find that often my Facebook posts are actually words of encouragement or frustration to myself.  Thoughts expressed.  Inspiration for action to be taken. 

And yes, can you tell, I am in a season of discontent.  I call it a season because I know, "this too shall pass".   I am not praying for the pain and confusion to leave but praying that I may grow and get stronger, more focused and believe more through it.  Pain is an inviation to grow. 

Thank you, Lord, for this invitation.  I joyfully accept and will bring focus, action and belief to achieve what you have in store for me.  I am excited and can't wait for the surprise at the bottom of the box. 

Comments

[Mary Bachert]

Kelly, I too know what that feeling is like, but when this season of discontent does pass, it will feel like you have emerged from a cocoon. As you lift your wings and fly, you will see things you never saw before, but above all you will be filled with peace and joy. I know that GOD has great things in store for you.
My biggest challenge is to listen when GOD shows me what HE wants me to do. So often I do things the way I want, and even though I know GOD wants me to do something different, in my stubborn heart I say "No." So many years have been wasted and there is no way to get that time back. As I grow older, time seems to fly and it has made me realise that I am likely in the last third of my life and there is not much time left to leave a legacy.
I have a quote on my fridge that my daughter sent me and it always makes me stop and think! It is, "Don't let your past dictate your future!" Satan would have us believe that we have already messed up and it is too late to do anything, but it isn't.
Go forth with courage and I know GOD will show you what is at the bottom of your box!

[Tacey Chua Reichman]

I so identify with your post. I've been so busy doing all the "urgent and necessary" things for so many years, it feels like I will never have time to "come up for air" I am slowly realizing I must make/take time to examine where I am, who I am, and how I am going to best convey that to all the people in my life now and in the future. The motto on my kitchen cabinet for the past year is "Be Intentional" It feels like the process of maturing is so slow and because I didn't realize I have been creating my "voice" all along that I haven't been intentional enough! But no more lamenting the past! Now is the time to reflect, set new goals, and take the baby steps to achieve them. "The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid...."